My body says it wants babies, and I’m all like “sssshhh….”
Things I “have to” do before I can have a baby:
- Overcome my drug addiction
- Become a homeowner
- Finish college program
- Get job in desired career field
- Become financially stable
WTF. My body is yelling at me now, not 5-8 years from now. FML. I get paranoid. I’m married to an older man. He had a rough childhood, so he doesn’t believe we should have children until we are financially stable and completed everything on that goddamn list. I think he is just trying to time out my biological clock personally. I will be 28 next year. I want to have a kid BEFORE I’m 35, ideally…. within like 30-32 years old.
He says he wants to have kids, but I am afraid he is just telling me what I want to hear. What if he really doesn’t want children? What if he is just saying things and I am wasting time with him?
He assures me he does want my kid. But I don’t believe him. URGH.