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Kinktober 2018 Master Post

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1-Three’s Company by ladylace616

Fandom(s): Orange is the New Black/Parks and Recreation
Title: Three’s Company
Pairing/Charcacters: Alex Vause/April Ludgate/Andy Dwyer
Tags: F/M, F/F, Threesome- F/F/M, Threesome, Oral Sex, Double Oral Penetration, Vaginal Sex, Vaginal Fingering, Anal play, Couch Sex
Synopsis: I have heard it said that there is “no one way to be kinky” 😉 Crossover, Multi-fandom. Orange is the New Black Alex Vause would be a great addition to the A team from Parks and Rec. Kinktober contribution.

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2- Do As I Say by ladylace616

Fandom: Orange is the New Black
Title: Do As I Say
Pairing/Charcacters: Alex Vause/Piper Chapman
Tags: Submission, Domination, Dominatrix, Submissive, BDSM, Anal Play, Anal Plug, Ball Gag, Lesbian Sex, Sapphic Sex, Fingerfucking, Vaginal Fingering, Rough Sex, Strap On Sex, Hair Pulling, Oral Sex, weregonnaneedmorelube, Spanking, Dirty Talk
Synopsis:

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3. For the Love of Humiliation

Fandom: The Walking Dead
Title: For the Love of Humiliation
Pairing/Charcacters: Negan/You
Tags: BDSM, Choking, Anal Sex, Rough Sex, Humiliation, Masochism
Synopsis: Because Life is too short to pretend you don’t like a good choking. I have heard it said that “there is no one way to be kinky.” 😉 Negan/You Goodness. Enter at your own risk.

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4. Afternoon Delight

Fandom: Daria
Title: Afternoon Delight
Pairing/Charcacters: Jane Lane/Daria Morgendorfer
Tags: Public Sex, Oral Sex, Park Sex, Lesbian Sex, Sapphic Sex, Vaginal Fingering
Synopsis: Daria and Jane take a detour on their way to Jane’s house one afternoon.

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5. I’ll Be Your Good Girl

Fandom: Game of Thrones
Title: I’ll Be Your Good Girl
Pairing/Charcacters: Sansa Stark/Petyr Baelish
Tags: Daddy Dom, Domination, Submission, Submissive, Daddy Dom Little Girl Kink, BDSM, Nipple Clamps, Blindfold, Wrist Restraints, Restraints, Gym Sex, Vaginal Sex, Spanking, Oral Sex
Synopsis:

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6. Revenge is A Bitch and So Am I

Fandom: American Horror Story: Cult
Title: Revenge is a Bitch and So Am I
Pairing/Characters: Ally/Ivy
Tags: BDSM, Humiliation, Rough Sex, Slapping, Hate Fucking, Face Sitting, Urophile
Synopsis: Role Reversal. Ally makes Ivy her bitch.

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7. TBA

Fandom: The 100
Title: TBA
Pairing/Characters: Clarke/Bellamy/Roan
Tags: Blowjobs, Oral Sex, Vaginal Sex, Anal Sex, Analingus, Anal Play, Threesome – M/M/F, Threesome, F/M, M/M
Synopsis:

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8. Attempt 218: The Time Tahani Was Eleanor’s Soulmate

Fandom: The Good Place
Title: Attempt 218: The Time Tahani Was Eleanor’s Soulmate
Pairing/Characters: Tahani/Eleanor, Jason/Original Character, Vicky/Chidi
Tags: TBA
Synopsis: Michael’s report on Attempt 218

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9. Sympathy for the Devil

Fandom: House MD
Title: Sympathy for the Devil
Pairing/Characters: Remy/Chase, Thirteen, Robert Chase
Tags: Drunk Sex
Synopsis: When Thirteen agreed to go out with Chase for that coffee, little did she know their encounter would turn into shared espressos over death. And death is an aphrodisiac to the sophisticated palate….

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10. Do I Feel Familiar?

Fandom: House MD
Title: Do I Feel Familiar?
Pairing/Characters: Greg House/Amber Volakis, Amber, House, James Wilson
Tags: TBA
Synopsis: TBA

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Three Fictional Characters

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Saw this on facebook- you pick three fictional characters to represent yourself and see what others think.

I had quite a few different influences in answering this question.

I had a couple of characters that leaped to mind automatically-

  1. Daria Morgendorfer- Why did I pass on Daria? While I hold her in high esteem and I wish desperately she were my friend, I don’t think I am as apathetic as she is. She’s always been so unenthusiastic and in that department I differ from her. Her pessimism trumps my pessimism.
  2. Luna Lovegood- I ruled out Luna on the basis that I have never been as unafraid as her. She marches to the beat of her own drum and doesn’t care who knows it. She is more like my friend Elizabeth, I was always scared of what people might think so I don’t think I am as much devil-may-care.
  3. Wednesday Addams- I ruled out Wednesday because I thought April was a closer fit to my personality. They both have very dry and morbid senses of humor but April seems more relatable to me, although growing up with a weird extended family doesn’t sound so different now that I think about it. Wednesday stands out with her gothic style but I am more like April and “goth in spirit.”

I picked the other two girls because…..

Mindy- When I watched that show, she seemed so like me. “My life is so fucked up but I’m trying to be cute about it so there’s something endearing in all my mess, right???” She was a hot mess and a delight to watch. I got her sense of humor.

Enid- I felt the same about this lost teenager. Her adventurous side reflects the streak I had when I was younger. Impulsively following people and making up stories about them. Drawing all the time. Writing. Feeling like a fuck up, doing self destructive things and being powerless to stop yourself.

Is my life determined to be ironic at all times?

The things you care about matter. The things you enjoy and are passionate about are important because they are your passion.

Every time I turn around, I notice things about kids. I can’t stop thinking about it. I saw this trailer for a movie and I can’t wait to see it. It wrung my heart- it is exactly what I want to do.

Everyone wants to adopt a baby. No one wants to show a seven year old love. They all the want the little kids. I just want to foster a young boy, maybe brothers if we’re lucky. Will I ever have that?

My girlfriend asked me what that means for my relationship if my husband ultimately doesn’t want children. I both love and hate the idea. The present me loves it because he wishes to care for me and only me in the future. He doesn’t want to share my attention with children. He wants it to just be us.

I am both impatient with and understand the desire to wait to have children. We have time. It’s a life long commitment, and maybe we’re not there yet truthfully. Jake and I’s second anniversary rolled around recently and I get the feeling his feelings are cooled somewhat from times past. Our sex life isn’t the best, so therefore I am not as lovable.  One of my other girlfriends commented that my relationship relies entirely upon my pussy’s health. She wasn’t kidding. It sucks to know hard truths, but a true friend tells them. The bad thing is I’m not always healthy.

I am physically unavailable, and he is emotionally unavailable. We both struggle with some of the same problems but he seems determined to ignore those problems. I have a desire to work the 12 step program and have him participate, also. It’s therapeutic and perhaps we would gain closure in may ways, both together and separately. We both suffer from B.E.D. and we could understand our reasons why maybe if we worked together.

I had the audacity to make this suggestion and my husband resented it horribly. He hated to confront hard truths. He would rather not discuss that which he isn’t willing to examine more closely. The more detailed questions I asked, the more unsettled he became. That will teach me a lesson about trying to therapize my husband without his knowledge.  He does not place nice with others sometimes. He can be a mean, snapping bulldog from time to time. Quite vicious and unyielding. He would never raise a hand to me, but I can remember thinking the same thing about my mother.

Sometimes I ignore how my mother treated me in my past. Not living under the same roof makes me more forgiving. But in reading the book I am getting together, I can’t help but remember how alienated she made me feel. We used to fight and shout with each other. We shoved each other, I ran away from home. I lived out of my car to avoid her. I became an alcoholic without her love. Lost and yearning for a mother figure who didn’t try to make me look incompetent and stupid at every turn. Someone who valued me and wanted nothing from me.

My therapist made a poignant point to me one time. She said it made sense that I liked participating in my husband’s version of microscopic love. My fathers never paid me any attention, and now I had a man that was utterly interested in my every coming and going. I liked the attention to detail. I liked being controlled. I liked being paid strict attention, even when I chaffed against it. I tested his love. It reminds me of a favorite passage from my favorite book:

On the whole, this person with the sunburst on his boots remained cranky and disagreeable in his behavior toward the little blond runt. He realized it, too. Joe knew good and well he had become a pain in the neck, and what’s more he was none too concerned about it. But there was a reason for his unconcern; He was happy.

For the first time in his life, he felt himself released from the necessity of grinning and posturing and yearning for the attention of others. Nowadays he had, in the person of Ratso Rizzo, someone who needed his presence in an urgent, almost frantic way that was a balm to something in him that had long been exposed and enflamed and itching to be soothed. God alone knew how or why, but he had somehow actually stumbled upon a creature who seemed to worship him. Joe Buck had never before known such power and was therefore ill equipped to administer it. All he could do was taste it over and over again like a sugar starved child on a mountain of candy: cuss and frown and complain and bitch, and watch Ratso take it. For that is the way in which power is usually tasted; in the abuse of it. It was delicious and sickening and he couldn’t stop himself. The only thing the runt seemed to demand was the privilege of occupying whatever space he could find in the tall cowboy’s shadow. And casting such a shadow had become Joe Buck’s special pleasure. 

We made it through all the uncertainty. I became used to his law. We are both reflections of the other in many ways. We have dealt with similar things in our lives. He has cared for a physically disabled person in the past as I have. He has cared for and provided for younger siblings and girls especially. We both dealt with an addict parent in our lives. We have both dated addicts in our past and tried to help or change them. We have both suffered from codependency issues, and yet we jumped in feet first with each other anyway.

I read once, “You attract what you are, not what you want. So who are you being?”

Birds of a feather flock together.

Like begets liking.

I have realized that my past partners and I all had things in common. The over arching theme is depression and anxiety of some sort. I attract sad, anxious people because I am sad little monster living in a sick, sad world.

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Excerpt from the short story ‘Lady Hunting’ (WIP)

Lady Hunting by ladylace616
Jane and Daria live in the city in their late twenties. Daria is a novelist. Jane works at a tattoo parlor and has a steady boyfriend named Gene. She and Gene want to keep things fresh and exciting in their relationship so they agree to add a third person to their relationship. Daria agrees to be Jane’s wing-woman on her quest to find the new addition to her relationship. Jane hopes in the process to help her perpetually single friend Daria meet someone not so terrible.


“I can’t believe we’re doing this.”

Jane was preoccupied, looking at herself in the bathroom mirror. She adjusted her breasts in her tight red tank top and smiled mischievously at herself. “Doing what?” she asked, distracted.

“I can’t believe we’re going trolling, looking for you a girlfriend,” Daria said.

“Daria! You said you’d try and be more open minded,” Jane chided her. They were in the bathroom of the local art museum. Jane had heard about a wine tasting party on the rooftop and of course she dragged her bestie along.

It was the perfect opportunity to find artsy gals, Jane said. She was on the market for a new girlfriend. Daria was in need of opening up her mind a little because Jane already had a steady boyfriend. They had been dating a couple of years and he had recently expressed a desire to add another person to their relationship. Jane was bi-curious. She agreed to her boyfriend’s proposition, on one condition.

“I get to pick the girl,” she said.

“I can’t believe Gene wants you to do this,” Daria said. “Oh please, how is there a downside to this for him? I bring home a smoking hot hottie and he gets to be with two women.”

Daria chuckled wryly. “I guess I hadn’t thought about it like that. But what about you? What about the risk you’re taking? Aren’t you worried he might end up liking the other girl more?”

“How could anyone like someone more than me? Did you not get the memo that I am the personification of the word ‘cool’?” Jane threw back her head with a throaty laugh. “Oh gee, aren’t I a dope?” Daria deadpanned. “But in the rare case-“ she insisted, but Jane cut her off.

“Quit worrying so much. So what if he ends up liking the other girl better? Then I would know that he was not the right man for me. And shouldn’t I find that out sooner rather than later?” she asked, eyebrow quirked.

Daria pursed her lips. “You might have a point there, Lane,” she conceded. Jane gave her a knowing look over her shoulder as she led their way out of the bathroom. They crossed through the spacious lobby of the museum and towards the elevators.

Before long, they were at the rooftop access. Jane paid for their cover and they slipped inside. It was hot outside, and everyone standing around in groups were all mostly young like themselves dressed in summer clothes.

There was music playing and lanterns hanging on strings strung up around the roof. There was a bar on the far side of the roof and a small fire pit with chairs scattered around it. A few people were seated there, but most were off to a side area with lounge chairs.

The friends went to procure drinks at the bar. Daria enjoyed the music playing and sipped at her glass of wine. She surveyed the crowd as she did so.

“What about her?” she asked.

She nodded her head to indicate a young blonde girl. She was ample in cleavage and chirping away animatedly.

“Too preppy,” Jane commented.

“Excuse me if I’m not familiar with your taste in women yet, being so new and all,” Daria commented. She was still taken aback by Jane’s recent admission.

Daria was strictly dickly. She had dated sporadically in college after she dumped Tom. She was a monogamous type of person, which is why Jane’s plan baffled her all the more. She could never imagine being self-assured and confident enough to allow a second woman into one of her relationships. Hell, she barely managed to make it out of her relationships alive when it was just her. She couldn’t imagine.

Jane liked to remind her often how long it had been since she’d been with anyone. She couldn’t help it if she couldn’t focus on much else besides her work. She didn’t feel the pressure to conform that so many of her generation did.

She didn’t need a house, kids, and a picket fence. She was happy with her loft apartment in the city and her cushy writing gig from home. Was she a hermit that preferred to do most of their writing in sweatpants? Yes, but who was she really hurting?

Jane wouldn’t stand for it. She wouldn’t allow her best friend to stay sequestered away for too long. She was always there to drag Daria out of her shell.

The last relationship Daria had been in ended messily. She seemed to have a knack for it. His name was Elliott and they had met at the library. He was also a writer with a neurosis to rival her own. He was a magazine editor. Their relationship ended badly when he took credit for one of her pieces during a dry spell. He had writer’s block and was desperate to meet a deadline. He was one of those writers who mostly smoked and stared at a blank word document on his computer. The kind of writer that doesn’t write.

Go to your happy place

I live at the X-Men mansion. Have the power to travel interdimensionally and experience others worlds, or copy elements in their current habitat and encourage others to see and hear things that are not physically present.

People That Live with me in the Mansion:

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Carol & Daryl from The Walking DeadThese two are a dynamite duo!! They are the main security of the mansion because ain’t no shit getting past these two! I love how bad ass they are both together and apart as individuals. Carol is genuinely a role model of mine, at least from the TV series. (Have not read the comic, aspire to)

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Andy and April from Parks and Recreation, I dig both of these two hardcore. Andy is my spirit animal. I would love to hang out with both of them, because of his entertainment value and her dry wit. Her dark sense of humor would jive with the rest of the group.

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Michael and Eleanor, They are hilarious! *wink*

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Daria Morgendorfer and Jane Lane from Dariafor their unending sarcasm and quips. Their intelligence and penchant for art and poetry combined make them a great duo.

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Jason Mendoza and Janet, because I need a lot of light heartedness to balance the darkness in my mind

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Lorraine Broughton and Delphi Lasalle from Atomic BlondeBecause Lorraine would strike down my enemies out in the field secretly. I value her cunning intelligence, resourcefulness, and strength. And Delphi because I need lesbians in my life =P

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Brienne of Tarth from Game of Thrones, Also for security. I value her undying loyalty and strength. She is a true individual who marches to the beat of her own drum. She is independent and determined. 

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Enid from Ghost World, Her sense of adventure and art makes her valuable. We would get along great. She is super nerdy, too. A little lost inside and mentally scattered, as we deep types are wont to do. I identify with her, especially seeing an older man. (Also, she’s undeniably sexy.)

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Adult Wednesday AdamsThis web series was like eureka!! She is such an identifiable character as well. She’s independent and outspoken. Intelligent and insulting, cunning and deep. I like her dark sense of humor as well. 

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Raven from Teen TitansI admire her degree of mental control. I wish to attain the level of zen she is able to achieve through meditation. I like her dark spells and the concept of all her personalities being my friend would be fun, as if they were all running around the mansion. She also enjoys poetry and study so we would click.

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Alex Vause from Orange is the New Black, I have the hugest crush on her. Her lewd sense of humor and capacity for fucking up is something I can relate to unfortunately. Plus more lesbians, we discussed this.

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Khal Drogo and Danaeryus Stormborn from Game of Thrones, They are both very sexy and driven individuals. They were a beautiful team and it would please me muchly if the Khaleesi were to share her Khal with me *wiggles eyebrows*

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Louis Huang, He is the sweetest and nicest guy around. Any girl would be lucky to have him. One of the moments I remember most about him is that Jessica his wife said, “You really want me to have the things I want. I’m never going to get mad at you for that.” ❤ Be still my heart.

 

Let the Healing Begin

I have done something good for myself. I have recognized that it is time to ascend to my second chakra and attend to my other needs. I have established a base, however infirm it is. Now is a period of transformation, an acceptance of change, and I must carry myself with grace.

I wrote a letter on behalf of Johnny this afternoon. That was a more challenging experience than I anticipated.  It was pretty difficult considering I think he’s really a fool no one should bother about. It was sad to talk about him at therapy this morning. Because, that’s right, I ACTUALLY MADE AN APPOINTMENT! That is a sure sign of progress.

I’ve also discovered that

is not a safe place to be right now x_x lol I want so badly to scroll, but I haven’t seen the latest episode of Once Upon a Time yet!!! >__<

Anyways, it’s November, so let us begin the gratitude. I am ever so thankful for…

  1. a working vehicle
  2. a hard working man
  3. anxiety medication
  4. netflix, a means of entertainment
  5. a GOOD PAYING JOB! 😀

Daria Survey Season 5

  • Fizz Ed: What’s your favorite soda?
    Sprite
  • Sappy Anniversary: Have you ever forgotten an important date?
    Sometimes I forget my family member’s birthdays >__>
  • Fat Like Me: Have you ever tried to lose weight?
    I have and it has always been a struggle.
  • Camp Fear: How well do you handle organized activities?
    I’m pretty chill, I always go with the flow.
  • The Story of D: How well do you deal with rejection?
    I try to shrug it off, it happens sometimes.
  • Lucky Strike: Talk about your favorite substitute teacher.
    I can’t recall liking any one in particular =/
  • Art Burn: How much do you value originality?
    Nothing is original, in my opinion. It’s all about a person’s influences and the beauty of their work in the end.
  • One J at a Time: Do you date around, prefer a single partner, or neither?
    I prefer to be in monogamous relationships.
  • Life in the Past Lane: What’s the weirdest experience you’ve had with someone you’ve dated?
    I was dating a poet once and we went to hang out at his brother’s after open mic. He said let me go in ahead of you to make sure it’s okay and I said sure. He came back out and reported to me that his brother had a few friends over, but it would be okay if we joined. I walked into the man cave out back, and lo and behold, my first ex was sitting in the room. He was my date’s brother-in-law’s friend.
  • Aunt Nauseam: Do you get along with your extended family?
    I grew up with them, and now we don’t talk to each other =(
  • Prize Fighters: Have you ever been passed over for something for something you wanted because of a reason you found to be ridiculous?
    No, when I was, it was because my punctuality was called into question and I was admittedly late more often than admissible =/ Learned that lesson the hard way.
  • My Night at Daria’s: Have you ever stayed out too late with a significant other?
    I can remember all the times my first boyfriend and I hung out so late past curfew. We always claimed that he was taking me home early, when in reality we’d told my mom we were watching a movie and we’d be home late. Unaccounted for time in the middle is what we lived for *eyebrow waggle* lol
  • Boxing Daria: What’s a childhood memory that shaped who you are today?
    When I was an adolescent, I lost my grandma. She made me who I am today.
  • Is It College Yet?: What are your plans for the future?
    I’d like to get married and move into a house somewhere. Eventually become foster parents once we become more financially secure a few years down the road.

Daria Season 4 Survey

  • Partner’s Complaint: Have you ever used your resources to gain an advantage?
    I just used my friendship to get an edge over somebody else. Eat it bitch lol
  • Antisocial Climbers: What does it take for you to apologize to your friends?
    Practically nothing, I was always the first to say sorry even when I wasn’t.
  • A Tree Grows in Lawndale: Talk about a bad decision you’ve made.
    I had an opportunity to be with someone who truly loved me and I turned him down. I chose to be with a fucked up loser instead, and I always regret that decision. I might be married by now, if that weren’t the case *sigh*
  • Murder, She Snored: What’s the weirdest dream you’ve ever had?
    Once, I had a dream about a young hooker who got sick and passed out in the rain. A kindly family came upon her and rescued her and took her in. It turned out they were a band of travelling magicians, two parents and their young blonde son. The hooker wakes up and decides to thank them by sleeping with their son, and then is horrified when she finds out that the magicians are her parents, and has therefor slept with her brother *heebie jeebies comence*
  • The F Word: Are you afraid of failure?
    Failure isn’t something to be afraid of. The real thing you should fear is not learning something from your mistakes. In my business, we call failures “guest opportunities” because they’re always a way to turn things around.
  • I Loathe a Parade: How do you feel about parades?
    If they’re not throwing candy, what’s the point?
  • Of Human Bonding: How’s your relationship with your parents?
    I’m not speaking to my incarcerated father and my mother drives me crazy.
  • Psycho Therapy: Have you ever needed a psychological examination?
    Yes, unfortunately I have. But it’s helped a lot.
  • Mart of Darkness: What’s your weirdest experience in a store?
    Recently, we were near the check out when he heard a dispute going on at the front of the store. A guy was arguing with management for some reason and they were trying to kick him out.
  • Legends of the Mall: Do you know any good ghost stories? Care to share?
    When my uncle was a toddler, he was out in the pasture playing when my grandma stepped out of the house to call him in for dinner. She saw him talking animately, using hand gestures standing out by the barn. He looked like he was talking to someone, but no one was there. She called for him, and he came, and she asked him what he’d been doing. He was talking to Uncle Kermit, a relative that had been dead a couple years.
  • Groped by an Angel: What do you believe in?
    Treating others as you would have yourself treated, with dignity and compassion.
  • Fire!: Have you ever had a house fire?
    Thank God, no!!
  • Dye! Dye! My Darling!: Have you ever cheated on someone or been the person someone’s cheated with?
    I’m not proud to admit it, but I have been.
  • Is it Fall Yet?: Talk about your favorite summer.
    It was probably any of the ones when I was younger, and we went to float the river every summer. I spent my time as a tomboy playing with 2 boys who sparked my love of Dragonball Z