Let the Healing Begin

I have done something good for myself. I have recognized that it is time to ascend to my second chakra and attend to my other needs. I have established a base, however infirm it is. Now is a period of transformation, an acceptance of change, and I must carry myself with grace.

I wrote a letter on behalf of Johnny this afternoon. That was a more challenging experience than I anticipated.  It was pretty difficult considering I think he’s really a fool no one should bother about. It was sad to talk about him at therapy this morning. Because, that’s right, I ACTUALLY MADE AN APPOINTMENT! That is a sure sign of progress.

I’ve also discovered that

is not a safe place to be right now x_x lol I want so badly to scroll, but I haven’t seen the latest episode of Once Upon a Time yet!!! >__<

Anyways, it’s November, so let us begin the gratitude. I am ever so thankful for…

  1. a working vehicle
  2. a hard working man
  3. anxiety medication
  4. netflix, a means of entertainment
  5. a GOOD PAYING JOB! 😀

Daria Survey Season 5

  • Fizz Ed: What’s your favorite soda?
    Sprite
  • Sappy Anniversary: Have you ever forgotten an important date?
    Sometimes I forget my family member’s birthdays >__>
  • Fat Like Me: Have you ever tried to lose weight?
    I have and it has always been a struggle.
  • Camp Fear: How well do you handle organized activities?
    I’m pretty chill, I always go with the flow.
  • The Story of D: How well do you deal with rejection?
    I try to shrug it off, it happens sometimes.
  • Lucky Strike: Talk about your favorite substitute teacher.
    I can’t recall liking any one in particular =/
  • Art Burn: How much do you value originality?
    Nothing is original, in my opinion. It’s all about a person’s influences and the beauty of their work in the end.
  • One J at a Time: Do you date around, prefer a single partner, or neither?
    I prefer to be in monogamous relationships.
  • Life in the Past Lane: What’s the weirdest experience you’ve had with someone you’ve dated?
    I was dating a poet once and we went to hang out at his brother’s after open mic. He said let me go in ahead of you to make sure it’s okay and I said sure. He came back out and reported to me that his brother had a few friends over, but it would be okay if we joined. I walked into the man cave out back, and lo and behold, my first ex was sitting in the room. He was my date’s brother-in-law’s friend.
  • Aunt Nauseam: Do you get along with your extended family?
    I grew up with them, and now we don’t talk to each other =(
  • Prize Fighters: Have you ever been passed over for something for something you wanted because of a reason you found to be ridiculous?
    No, when I was, it was because my punctuality was called into question and I was admittedly late more often than admissible =/ Learned that lesson the hard way.
  • My Night at Daria’s: Have you ever stayed out too late with a significant other?
    I can remember all the times my first boyfriend and I hung out so late past curfew. We always claimed that he was taking me home early, when in reality we’d told my mom we were watching a movie and we’d be home late. Unaccounted for time in the middle is what we lived for *eyebrow waggle* lol
  • Boxing Daria: What’s a childhood memory that shaped who you are today?
    When I was an adolescent, I lost my grandma. She made me who I am today.
  • Is It College Yet?: What are your plans for the future?
    I’d like to get married and move into a house somewhere. Eventually become foster parents once we become more financially secure a few years down the road.

Daria Season 4 Survey

  • Partner’s Complaint: Have you ever used your resources to gain an advantage?
    I just used my friendship to get an edge over somebody else. Eat it bitch lol
  • Antisocial Climbers: What does it take for you to apologize to your friends?
    Practically nothing, I was always the first to say sorry even when I wasn’t.
  • A Tree Grows in Lawndale: Talk about a bad decision you’ve made.
    I had an opportunity to be with someone who truly loved me and I turned him down. I chose to be with a fucked up loser instead, and I always regret that decision. I might be married by now, if that weren’t the case *sigh*
  • Murder, She Snored: What’s the weirdest dream you’ve ever had?
    Once, I had a dream about a young hooker who got sick and passed out in the rain. A kindly family came upon her and rescued her and took her in. It turned out they were a band of travelling magicians, two parents and their young blonde son. The hooker wakes up and decides to thank them by sleeping with their son, and then is horrified when she finds out that the magicians are her parents, and has therefor slept with her brother *heebie jeebies comence*
  • The F Word: Are you afraid of failure?
    Failure isn’t something to be afraid of. The real thing you should fear is not learning something from your mistakes. In my business, we call failures “guest opportunities” because they’re always a way to turn things around.
  • I Loathe a Parade: How do you feel about parades?
    If they’re not throwing candy, what’s the point?
  • Of Human Bonding: How’s your relationship with your parents?
    I’m not speaking to my incarcerated father and my mother drives me crazy.
  • Psycho Therapy: Have you ever needed a psychological examination?
    Yes, unfortunately I have. But it’s helped a lot.
  • Mart of Darkness: What’s your weirdest experience in a store?
    Recently, we were near the check out when he heard a dispute going on at the front of the store. A guy was arguing with management for some reason and they were trying to kick him out.
  • Legends of the Mall: Do you know any good ghost stories? Care to share?
    When my uncle was a toddler, he was out in the pasture playing when my grandma stepped out of the house to call him in for dinner. She saw him talking animately, using hand gestures standing out by the barn. He looked like he was talking to someone, but no one was there. She called for him, and he came, and she asked him what he’d been doing. He was talking to Uncle Kermit, a relative that had been dead a couple years.
  • Groped by an Angel: What do you believe in?
    Treating others as you would have yourself treated, with dignity and compassion.
  • Fire!: Have you ever had a house fire?
    Thank God, no!!
  • Dye! Dye! My Darling!: Have you ever cheated on someone or been the person someone’s cheated with?
    I’m not proud to admit it, but I have been.
  • Is it Fall Yet?: Talk about your favorite summer.
    It was probably any of the ones when I was younger, and we went to float the river every summer. I spent my time as a tomboy playing with 2 boys who sparked my love of Dragonball Z

This is the #storyofmylife here lately ^_^ I have been binge watching a few shows. Most notably, Once Upon A Time is the one that pertains to the above. There’s also American Horror Story and the series iZombie featuring a zombie named “Liv Moore” lol

Daria Survey Season 3

  • Through a Lens Darkly: Do you need glasses/contacts?
    Most definitely. I don’t envy any driver that’s around me at night without glasses lol
  • The Old and the Beautiful: Who’s your favorite old person?
    My Grandpa. He is the best.
  • Depth Takes a Holiday: Describe your favorite holiday memory.
    I always loved Granny’s Thanksgivings. Granny always let each person request an item, and one year I asked for fortune cookies and my Grandpa got some for the whole family 🙂
  • Daria Dance Party: Have you ever been to a dance?
    I have been. The first guy I ever asked to dance turned me down :/
  • The Lost Girls: Are you “edgy”?
    Not in the slightest.
  • It Happened One Nut: What was your first job? What’s your dream job?
    My first job was at Candid Color, and I liked it. My dream job is to be where Ivy is, a front desk manager.
  • Daria! The Musical: What’s your favorite musical?
    The Producers. I am a sucker for the old granny scene, it always makes my day.
  • Lane Miserables: How is it for you when family visits?
    The same as this episode, where you can’t wait for them to leave. Things get hectic when all my family is around.
  • Jake of Hearts: When did you first come to terms with your own or someone else’s mortality?
    That was when my favorite pet cat died, Candyman. I was 15 and we had to put him down.
  • Speedtrapped: Do you have a bad driving story? (What is it?)
    My mother and I got lost in Houston, TX. We circled the same building and highway so many times we lost count because we printed directions to get to the place we were visiting, but not to get back home. It was hilarious, my mom’s racism came screaming out. She was like, “I need directions from an old, white guy!!! They’ll know, I wouldn’t trust any of these foreigners more than I would a woman for directions.” lol
  • The Lawndale File: Do you believe in aliens?
    I do. I have an open mind.
  • Just Add Water: Have you ever been on a boat?
    I have, yes. My dad owned a boat when I was younger, and we used to go to the lake.
  • Jane’s Addition: How did you meet your last significant other?
    The last person I was with, I met at an art community event. It was an open mic for poetry, and it was his first time performing.

~TBC~

Friday the 13th

Today was my first day at the Residence Inn by Marriott. I must say I am fucking THRILLED!! 😀 😀 😀

It was like 25% the work AND the stress, more importantly. *banners drop, confetti flies everywhere* I damn well deserve to celebrate, I found a piece of cake to get me by. I can totally make this job work and I’m very much looking forward to working with 2 managers I have worked with before and enjoyed. It’s going to be amazing 😀

Daria Survey Season 2

Arts ‘N Crass: Ever scare your teachers with something you turned in?
No, I can safely say I did not. But I have disturbed my parents before with homoerotica.

The Daria Hunter: Describe your worst field trip ever.
My class escort was my dad’s girlfriend. We went to the zoo in highschool, and she had to stay behind with me at the entrance to the water creature part of the park. I can’t go into aquariums, and it’s very embarrassing to have to admit my phobia and anxiety.

Quinn the Brain: How do you feel when someone takes your “role”?
I feel threatened when someone shines brighter than me at work. I’m usually the go-getter, so it perturbs me when someone is doing better than I am.

I Don’t: Describe your worst experience at a wedding.
I don’t think I’ve had bad moments at any weddings I’ve been to, fortunately.

That Was Then, This is Dumb: How do you feel about your parents’ friends?
My mom is friends with a bunch of low-lifes. I can’t stand any of them anymore, besides maybe one.

Monster: What’s something that you think is superficial?
Stripping? Taking advantage of your body? I mean, the body is going to decompose. I think you should have value outside of it, otherwise you’re fucked when your looks go. Be valued for your brain, if you can.

The New Kid: Have you ever hung out with the new kid?
I have, and for some reason he is always weird in some way.

Gifted: Were you ever the smartest kid in school?
I was viewed as an egg head, so you could say so, yes. I was friends with all the AP kids, myself included. I was on the honor roll, vice president of the chess club. I even participated in a few other clubs, too. I was an A-B student without even having to try. I was serious, and always listening. Quiet. Wore glasses. Liked anime. Big geek.

Ill: Talk about a time you were in the hospital.
I used to have to visit hospitals all the time when my Grandma was ill. A horrible experience each and everytime, I always ended up crying.

Fair Enough: Have you ever been to a school fundraiser?
Yes, I believe i’ve been to a few fun days where the money goes to make-a-wish.

See Jane Run: Were/are you on any sports teams?
That was the one extracurricular activity I was never interested in. I was actually like Daria in that episode, very unsupportive when my best friend got on the track team and started spending less time with me lol

Pierce Me: Do you have any piercings?
Just my ears!

Write Where it Hurts: Are you a writer?
I am! I moonlight as an erotic novelist, and I also write fanfiction.

~TBC~

Daria Survey

Season 1

  • Esteemsters: How’s your self-esteem?
    It could be better, unfortunately… ;-;
  • The Invitation: What’s the last party you went to?
    I believe it was Toby’s birthday party.
  • College Bored: What are your college plans?
    I will never finish, I hate school. -_-
  • Café Disaffecto: How do you take your coffee?
    “Would you like some coffee with your creamer??”
  • Malled: Describe an unpleasant experience you had at a mall.
    How about bizzare? Once, my boyfriend & I visited the mall arcade. Hours later, we found out that after we left the place, there was a shooting right outside that same arcade right after we left. O_o
  • This Year’s Model: What’s your opinion about the modeling industry?
    It would be fine if they didn’t airbrush and photoshop so much.
  • The Lab Brat: Describe the worst group project you ever participated in.
    I think I would have to say…. maybe some english group project, I can’t remember which.
  • Pinch Sitter: Describe your last babysitting experience.
    I baby-sitted my cousin recently, and that always goes well. I feed him and watch TV with him.
  • Too Cute: Are looks important to you?
    Not as important as a nerdy and keen mind
  • The Big House: Have you ever sneaked out or stayed out way too late?
    I have snuck out my bedroom window once. I was running away.
  • Road Worrier: Talk about your favorite road trip.
    I would have to say it might have been the time Veronica dropped everything in her life and went and helped me babysit my two cousins in Tulsa once. We went by ourselves and it was awesome.
  • The Teachings of Don Jake: Talk about a camping trip you’ve been on.
    We used to go float the river every summer. My childhood playmates were my mom’s best friends’ two kids. I was a tomboy with them and could always climb higher in the trees to jump out than them 🙂
  • The Misery Chick: What really makes you think?
    I have depression and anxiety, so those plague me quite often v___v

~ TBC ~