GOTHAM: My Newest Obsession

I must preface my review with the admission that I know little of DC timelines, and Huntress and Batwoman have always been my main interest. I was very interested in this show because of the premise that it’s before Batman’s time. I’d heard good things. But I don’t know anything about nit-picky things that hardcore fans would know, this is just my opinion of the show 🙂 Warning: CONTAINS SPOILERS!!!!

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IT’S DAMN GOOD TV!!

I got sucked into this series easily. The gritty quality of the show compared to spoof-like Batman movies was very captivating. It has had some very hard hitting issues take place in the show, one of which is the lovely Barbara going batshit nuts. She was already on the road there as we can see in season 1 with her instability.

I actually really liked Gordon and Barbara being together, and her obsession over him after their break up I find entertaining. How she is oh-so-deliciously-crazy and she half way wants to kill him or be killed by him, how wonderfully maniacal!! I can tell you, I was on the edge of my seat when she went Bridezilla.

I’ve enjoyed her transition in season 3. She is truly crazy and in charge, to a degree. She has her hot assassin girlfriend and her club, how could life be better? Her conversations with Gordon are still really stimulating and she’s just oh-so-funny. “What are you willing to give him?” “Boop!”

As for Jim, my heart bleeds for him as season 3 starts. He finally gets his head out of his ass long enough to go looking for Lee, only to find she’s happy with somebody else! D: WHYYYY. (Not that Lee is my favorite, just crying buckets over here for my little Gordon TT_TT)

His character is so much gruffer than when the series started. Gotham has chewed him up like a meat grinder and you can tell. He is so jaded this season and he truly seems not to care for people’s well being in the way he used to. When he was a cop, he would have done anything to protect Ms. Peabody rather than putting her in harm’s way. I miss this;

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Bullock is pretty hilarious. His loyalty to Jim is unwavering, and he is a cool guy. He has put his life and his good name on the line time after time to help his partner. Only a true friend would help you to clear your name once you’ve been convicted of murder. Speaking of…..

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Another character I’ve really enjoyed in this series has been Nygma!!!

Obviously, he’s seen better days and I am glad he is out of Arkham. I was really into it when he was on his killing spree, becoming the person he truly was. I thought it was so creepy yet cool how he chose to help Penguin in the woods and asked him to help him be a better murderer. His logical problems and riddles were adorable, and I couldn’t help but love him to pieces in the first season, the little geek. He reminded me of all the nerdy guys I knew grewing up, who found it difficult to approach girls.

His obsession with Miss Kringle was endearing, but his descent into madness after he accidentally killed her was the best. That was really good TV, and his plan to frame Gordon was very good. This show has the best way of ending episodes with endings that leave you screaming for more. I think hubby & I watched the whole series in a span of like 3 days haha

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I freaking love Alfred Pennyworth to death in this series. It never occurred to me before just what kind of childhood Batman endured after his parent’s death. I just always skipped ahead to his adulthood. I had given no thought to who first taught Bruce to fight. Alfred is a total bad ass in this series, granted he does get his ass kicked or stabbed frequently though lol

His personality is really spot on with the posh accent bit, but then he gets totally bad ass in defending Bruce. He will stop at nothing to find Bruce. I read a really touching fanfiction online actually that made me fall even more in love with his character: read it here

My Old Son by Pickwick12
All about the developing relationship of Gotham’s Bruce Wayne and Alfred Pennyworth as they cope with the deaths of Thomas and Martha Wayne, because they deserve more fanfiction. Will follow the show but have original content. Potential spoilers for any episodes that have aired on US TV. Chapters 1-86 are companions to Season 1, 87-131 to S2, and 132 on go with S3

Lastly, my favorite villain is probably this guy.

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He’s just so fuckin’ wiley. I was ever so glad that Arkham didn’t beat the crazy out of him and he still had some leftover to give that bitch Grace what she deserved. That was horrible part to see one of my favorite characters go through. I am pretty enthralled by his recent developments, but not surprised. He somehow always has a way of coming out on top, that Penguin. I love his new and stronger alliance with Nygma, I can’t wait to see how they make their mark on the city.

Off to Eagerly await new episodes…….

Happy Mother’s Day

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This is the most apt thing I’ve seen in a while.

How to Break a Broken Man by BattyNora
In Terminus, Gareth tells Rick that, as ringleader, he must pick one of the group in the train car to be sacrificed, but Rick refuses. Gareth attempts to convince Rick to choose by using Daryl, who has obviously already been beaten. To them it’s about enjoyment of causing people pain, both physical and mental, not about just getting food.

The Backcountry by silversundown
Survival horror, backwoods style: A weekend vacation to a tiny lakeside cabin turns out to be more than Carol bargained for. When Ed feels especially bad about a fight he takes her there to make up for it, but this time they aren’t the only ones roaming the woods. Faced with the real possibility of not surviving the trip Carol will have to make more than a few hard choices.


CAROL IS MY DARYL

In my perusal of the net lately, Carol has been getting a lot of shit!!! >o< WTF people? Bunch of haters. I absolutely love Carol and she is one of the shows most dynamic characters. She’s evolved into a stronger than steel woman from the poor battered wife she used to be.

When the group got to Alexandria and she posed as a timid woman to trick everyone about her cold and lethal viewpoint of the world, it was genius. She made it sound like she wasn’t brutal and ready to KILL. I thought some of her interactions with the annoying do-gooder Morgan were some excellent moments on TV. I was cheering on Carol as she tried to kill Morgan, because I believed more in what she believed- NO MERCY FOR YOUR ENEMIES. If they don’t kill them, they’ll come back to get them later. There will be no peace in letting your enemies live.

KEEP CALM AND
LOOK AT THE FLOWERS

I think it rattled Carol to step back into her timid self persona. She used this trick to pull the wool over the eyes of the Alexandria citizens and she and Maggie’s captors. She acted like she was a nervous nelly like she used to be, and maybe it did fuck her up, the poor thing. But she’s not a pussy now, guys!!! That’s what I keep seeing, people are disappointed/not understanding of her most recent actions in season six. She abandons the group, because she says she can’t kill for them anymore. Suddenly, she can’t bear to kill when she used to be the best at it, ruthless when she had to be.

Give Carol a friggin break, she held it together when she had to kill her adopted psycho daughter. I think she has been long due for a break down, so let her have it, people. She’ll wind back up with the others eventually. Carol always finds her way back.

So you need to come back from Kingdom.

Sex, Health, and Me

I’ve been having some health issues lately. As always, they are female issue related. I’ve been experiencing bloating, pain, and tenderness between my cycles. I suspected ovulation pain which I am familiar with, only recently I had a stretch of pain/general discomfort for about 3-4 days. It worried me, so I had that little break down I mentioned in my last post. I traveled to Ada, Oklahoma to visit the indian emergency room. Three hours later, they determined what it wasn’t and sent me off with pain meds and a referral to go to my normal doctor.

That was maybe a week and a half ago. Since then, Jake and I had a pleasurable trip out to Clinton so I could get an ultrasound done. When I finally got the test results back, the nurse told me that the results were “normal” even though I’m still experiencing pain and discomfort. She said just because they are normal doesn’t mean I’m not in pain, and then suggested that my problem could possibly be endometriosis and told me I had to follow up with my regular doctor, whom I hate.

After I found out about the news, I got a little upset. My boss recognized this and tried to talk to me about it, but I got emotional and had to leave the room. It’s hard for me to recognize when I need self-care, I tend to ignore what I really need and do what my id wants to do. I always feel the need to relax but never feel quite relaxed enough. I usually end up wasting a lot of my time smoking and indulging in false pleasures rather than focusing on what I really need to or should be doing to better myself. I should be indulging in more art and literature because expressing myself and immersing myself in words are both comforting acts to me.

Speaking of comfort, I started reading a pretty steamy story on fanfiction.net.

Thursday Night Safe Space by Magenta’s Nightmare
Andrea is a sex therapist who is married to Merle and best friends with Carol who is suffering the after effects of a troubled marriage. This is the story of what happens when Carol final lets her friend help her out. This is a Caryl story, don’t let the first chapter mislead you.

Rated: Fiction M – Daryl D., Andrea, Carol, Merle D. – Chapters: 9 – Words: 19,252 – Reviews: 65 – Favs: 10 – Follows: 26 – Updated: 21h ago – Published: Feb 15

It’s pretty hot, and I found it pretty stimulating for a couple of reasons. I used to consider being a therapist in the past. Not just any therapist, actually. A sex therapist. Among my friends, I have always been one of the more informed and I have a way of making them feel comfortable enough to share intimate details with me and open up.

The work that Andrea is doing in the story is very impacting. You can tell she is passionate about it because it matters. She brings intimacy into people’s relationships and makes them more sexually satisfied with each other. Being sexually informed and practiced is nothing to be ashamed of. It makes your partner feel better and more cared for when you know how to treat their body.

I have desired more intimacy in Jake and I’s relationship. In these sex work shops that Carol and Daryl are participating in, I’m a little familiar with the material. I’ve read plenty of sex stories and information on the importance of foreplay. I have even been to one of the sex shops before. I unwittingly went along with my artsy girlfriend who told me there would be free wine.

We showed up to a class in a small boutique shop in the plaza district. It was artistic and feminine with pastel corsets and bras on display in the shop. The class was described to me as an empowering experience for women so I didn’t complain as she brought me my free glass of wine. It was a class made up entirely of women ranging in ages and the instructor quickly introduced the thought of tantric sex. (Read more about tantric sex here.)

Before long, we were on our backs on the floor and the instructor was instructing us in raising our pelvis up off the floor and feeling your sexual energy. It was a pretty wicked experience, and I would have gone to more classes if me and that friend didn’t have a parting of ways.

You have to be in a comfortable space to achieve it. It’s hard to ask for what you want when you don’t think that your wish will be granted. Often times, I know I can’t ask Jake for extra foreplay because he gets impatient and then it’s just spoiled for both of us, which is infinitely worse than just spoiled for me.

If I’m being completely honest, I am more than a little bit interested in a more submissive type of sex style. I love to hear my partner make noises or talk dirty to me to show their appreciation, but Jake remains frustratingly silent. He is forever expecting me to read his mind when it comes to what he wants. He has trouble communicating, but he’s not the only one. He’d like me to do more anal experimentation, and I myself want to have more adventurous sex, as in outside-of-the-home sex ^_~

We’re making headway, believe it or not. The other day, Jake and I went out to a casino night date and went to Riverwind. On the way back after an enjoyable if not lucrative night out, we found ourselves groping in the car and things turned steamy quickly. I gave him road head on the way home despite how dangerous it is. I trust Jake implicitly, I knew he wouldn’t crash the car on us and he didn’t.

As for me trusting Jake, I am reminded of how much he really trusts me. The other night, we were 69ing, and his ass got ever closer to my face. I am almost positive he wanted me to perform anal oral sex on him, and I chickened out. If I am truly going to be confident in my skills, then I think I did the wrong thing shying away from the act. I’d like to work up the courage to try it, but don’t know how I feel about really performing the sexual act.

What are my reservations? I’m not afraid Jake would be unclean. I suppose it is the stigma attached to the act. I have always regarded it as something no man would ever want me to do, and felt grateful that no one had ever asked me to or been inclined for me to try it. But I know from experience that when Jake did it to me, it was an electrifying and forbidden feeling that was definitely pleasurable. I want him to feel the same, so we should shake it up somehow and I think that I should try it. I supposed I just don’t feel well educated enough about it to move forward with my desire, so I’ve been doing some research. . .

Speaking of weird sexual urges, I have an old friend in my orbit again. I got my old friend Sara a position up at my job. I don’t know if I regret it or not with her work output, but it sure is nice to hear all her gossip once more.

She likes regaling me with the sordid details of her new relationship. He is all about her and touching and pleasuring her, but she is being a cock tease and not reciprocating very much she says. She says he’s making it really difficult to deny her urges to have sex with him so soon. This will be her second relationship and she’s still pretty burned from the first dysfunctional one so she doesn’t want to move too fast.lol I told her girl you’re no virgin, you oughtta give it up haha

After my first boyfriend, I haven’t really made any boyfriend wait a long period of time before we got busy. I’m usually the one progressing things along pretty quickly. What can I say? I go after what I want lol

Good Story Recommendations

Dragon’s Princess by RegalStarlight
Princess Emma’s world is turned upside down when she meets Lily, a girl who can transform into a dragon. Despite their differences, the two girls feel an instant connection. But in a world of heroes and villains, can the light and the dark coexist? Enchanted Forest AU.
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Rated:
 T – [Emma S., Lily] – Chapters: 11 – Words: 13,161 – Reviews: 38 – Favs: 56 – Follows: 75 – Updated:Oct 31 – Published: Apr 1 – Status: Complete

A Mother and a Father: The Adoption Verse by lizandletdie
When Belle French discovers her son’s biological father never consented to the adoption, life becomes a lot more complicated for both parents. But can two parents share the same child? Painfully slow burn Floof Family Fluff Prompt!verse.
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Rated: T – Neal C./Baelfire, Rumpelstiltskin/Mr. Gold, Belle – Chapters: 67 – Words: 149,459 – Reviews: 272 – Favs: 104 – Follows: 141 – Updated: Oct 22 – Published: Aug 5, 2014 – Status: Complete

Broken Souls Mend Hearts by Can’t-Escape-My-Fandoms
Captain Swan AU. Cora lets the curse take Killian, and her action changes the course of events in Storybrooke, forever changing their lives. A lot will stay to canon to Seasons 1-3 so far with exceptions made to accommodate Killian being cursed to Storybrooke as well as original scenes with Killian and others. There will be elements of season 4, but it will not be canon.
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Rated: T – [Killian Jones/Captain Hook, Emma S.] – Chapters: 77 – Words: 574,533 – Reviews: 2,605 – Favs: 1,339 – Follows: 1,819 – Updated: Dec 6 – Published: Dec 6, 2013

Yesterday, I wasn’t able to blog because I was a in a black funk and asleep literally ALL DAY LONG.

Album I’ve been listening to:

I’ve been working on writing my fanfiction story today. Below is an excerpt from the latest chapter posted-

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Save the Savior by ladylace616
Chapter 15, Welcome Home David

“It’s not worth the heart ache,” Emma said, shaking her head ruefully. “Well, anyways,” Mary Margaret said dismissively. “He’s having a welcome home party this weekend. His wife is throwing it for him,” Mary Margaret said contemptuously. “He invited me, and I told him I’d go, and of course you won’t let me go alone,” Mary Margaret said.

WARNING: Obsessive Fangirl Moment

THANK YOU NETFLIX, YOUTUBE & HULU! GOD BLESS YOU FOR GIVING ME SOMETHING TO MINDLESSLY DO FOR HOURS AND HOURS. I AM WAY TOO OBSESSED WITH THIS SHOW x_x

Finally watched the first episode of season 5!!! I’m so friggin excited. It’s torture having to wait for more. I absolutely loved Merida, and hope to see more of her. This website is really fun to peruse, the picture above came from it and there are many more gems.

I’ve been writing my own Once Upon a Time fanfic feverishly lately. I’ve lost a lot of sleep and been irresponsible, staying up so late I’ve even been late to work. I’ve literally been staying up all hours of the night working on writing again. The one sitting the other day, I pumped out nearly four whole chapters and they weren’t short neither. That hardly NEVER happens. I am elated to be doing something I enjoy. It’s fun having an obsession again.

Without further ado, the byproduct of my obsession:

Save the Savior by ladylace616
AU. Emma went with Lily at the bus stop and they’ve been together ever since. The Apprentice never showed himself to Lily and they grow up full of questions about their parents. One day, August the mysterious writer moves in next door & is determined to take them on a trip that will change their lives. The question is will it be for better or for worse? Chapter 10, Happy Halloween!

Sources of inspiration

Stories I am reading;

  1. The Dumbest Idea Ever by Rose unspindle [Read this if you’re feeling kinky. Polyam]
  2. Of Thieves, Smugglers and Reformed Hearts by lenfaz
    Modern Life AU – Granny has a special program where she gives reformed petty criminals room and boarding at Granny’s and help them get back on his feet. Killian and Will are part of the program. Killian’s path will lead him to the sheriff, Emma; while Will’s will take him to the arms of the recent divorced librarian, Belle.
  3. Of Madness and Love by KeyWillow8626
    Because Jefferson needs a love-interest and the madness will never end anyway.
  4. Salt Water Soothes the Soul by Ltb16
    CS AU. Her life hadn’t been easy but she always found some comfort when she was near the water. Now Emma Swan lives in a tiny resort town, enjoying small town life. Killian Jones recently lost his brother and wanted a new start. When he meets Emma in a random encounter, he finds himself wanting more. Will these two allow the salt water to sooth their souls? *Updated every Tuesday.
  5. Mind Games by CurvyPragmatist
    Major Emma Swan is signed off from active duty following an accident, refusing any and all help she eventually befriends a cat-loving Doctor with her own issues. SwanQueen AU.

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As I work on my creative efforts, I’ve been watching my Captain Swan Feels playlist. Please watch and adore the cuteness.

Painfully Yours

Save the Savior by ladylace616
AU. Emma went with Lily at the bus stop and they’ve been together ever since. The Apprentice never showed himself to Lily and the girls grow up full of questions about their parents. One day, August the mysterious writer moves in next door. He claims to have a message for them. He must convince them of their magical origins and get them to accompany him to Storybrooke. Read More
Rated: T – English – Drama/Fantasy – Chapters: 1 – Words: 2,781 – Published: Aug 19


I am up to date on all things Once Upon A Time now!! I signed up for Hulu and watched all of season 4. I absolutely loved loved loved ALL THE CAPTAIN SWAN ACTION!! They are truly my favorite cannon pairing. Watch this video for the cuteness:

Anyway, I did write the story featured above. It’s a plot bunny I felt the need to chase because watching the series, I think these two deserve a little more exploration. Lily and Emma together could have been a great duo to see, so I’m giving them their chance while I can 🙂 Plus, I can’t resist me some Wooden Swan action either. 

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In other news, I have been having some horrible, terrible, no good health complications. I will make this brief since it upsets me to have to think about. I have ovarian cysts that are scaring the shit out of me and making me super uncomfortable. I have been living glued to a heating pad, until today. I went to the Indian Clinic and they prescribed me more things for pain and they seemed to help a lot. I was in a lot of pain, actually. I keep telling Jake my insides feel soupy, and I’m actually pretty scared because one of these cysts burst last week and it was the worst pelvic pain I’d ever experienced. I am scared it will happen again 😦 I am afraid to jostle myself, and Jake is being extremely patient seeing as we found out after my E.R. visit that he and I can’t have sex for awhile. He is being surprisingly cool about it so far… but it’s still early.

Symptoms of Ovarian Cysts

The signs and symptoms of ovarian cysts, if present, may include:

  • Pelvic pain — a dull ache that may radiate to your lower back and thighs
  • Pelvic pain shortly before your period begins or just before it ends
  • Pelvic pain during intercourse (dyspareunia)
  • Pain during bowel movements or pressure on your bowels
  • Nausea, vomiting or breast tenderness like that experienced during pregnancy
  • Fullness or heaviness in your abdomen
  • Pressure on your bladder that causes you to urinate more frequently or have difficulty emptying your bladder completely