Once Upon a Time spoilers!

What do you need to be happy?
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You Need Friends to Be Happy

You are a friendly, social person. You seek out connections and relationships. Being close to others is very important to you, and you don’t like discord.

You feel great when you’re cooperating and working with others. You enjoy belonging to a group.

Nothing makes you feel worse that feeling alone or alienated. You want to be liked by those around you.

It would truly be nice to make acquaintances with some of my old friends again. A lot of the time though, I feel it’s impossible. I am so far away from what I used to be– I used to avoid seeing them because I couldn’t afford to be friends with them AND make Jake happy. He didn’t like it (still doesn’t) when I made plans with other people, took away from his time with me. He needed to dominate all my time, but once we’re married he’s going to have to get a little cooler with that.

Speaking of friends, Jake and I are considering something. Something exciting!!! We maybe want to get married sooner rather then later!! ***SQUEE*** I always thought I wanted the big wedding where we all (family & loves ones) congregate but when I saw how much my family was willing to help me achieve this, it made me feel discouraged from doing that. I can see more and more PROS to having a small, intimate ceremony. It would be a lot less stressful for us and cost effective. But there’s so much to plan in such little time!!

Things to Do Before Then:

~ Go buy dress
~ Make Save The Date announcements
~ Let appropriate family members know
~ Get hotel room at employee rate
~ Find a place to dine near courthouse for family

WHERE THERE’S A WILL, THERE’S A WAY!!!

Unlike for this couple and the HORRIBLE, HEART WRENCHING way they have ended. *drowns self in river of tears* I must admit, in some ways I’m kind of glad Emma will have to move on because everyone else has had to- there is no getting your loved ones back, no matter what. It wouldn’t be fair to everyone else, and it’s horrible that they had to end nevertheless TOT

‘Their last hand holding, I will never let you go, seems to be said between the two of them. I was so heartbroken when watching this scene. The end of Hook *river of tears forever*

Goodbye Hook :((((((

We will miss your wit and charm. We will miss your swagger and your devilishly handsome good looks. We will miss the way you opened the Savior’s heart and did everything in your power to make her happy, helping her to save her son and her family. He chased her through time, and she followed him to the afterlife. They were Dark Ones together, and now their chapter together is over. True Love Conquered, but perhaps it will rise again.

reflections on s5x10

from a CS prospective: WTF ARE YOU DOING TO MY SHIP??

lol after this episode, I feel the need to go back and binge watch season 4 goodness because of how upset I am over this fictional relationship

My boyfriend laughed at my reactions throughout the episode. The whole reason I love Captain Hook is because of his deep love for Emma. Or what WAS a deep love?!?!?!?! TOT

Surely he’s just being a big asshole. A big dark one asshole who is not able to resist the darkness and has let it take over him. The Hook I loved did die that day unfortunately *sobs* Now we have this weird dark one that I don’t even

*flails*

OUAT spoilers

*sound of me sobbing*

is all that can be heard at the end of 5×08 T___T

a.k.a. speculations on dark!Hook

“Oncers, do you think Hook’s promise still holds true?”

I saw an article on the internet with this picture and caption and nearly burst into tears. I had such intense fangirl feels during the whole episode. The multiple shots of the cute couple together were so heart warming. You can ask my boyfriend, I could be found making loud sounds of discomfort as my soul died a little over Hook’s last words: “So much for our future, Swan.”

*sobs*

I always loved Captain Swan because Hook was so freaking in love. His love was burning strong like a flame, his love although his character was not always was so righteous and true. The hair on the back of my neck stood up when he told Emma back in Neverland [“and when I win your heart, it will be because you want me”] -paraphrase- and the scene when they said good-bye at the 3b finale? *swoons*

I just can’t stand that Hook doesn’t love Emma!! It’s awful. I wish his promise could be true, but at the same time, it is pretty awful what she has done. Turned him into something he’s spent his whole life trying to either kill or avoid; the dark one and his own darkness. I must admit I wasn’t expecting it!! But I have faith that Emma & Killian could defeat the darkness together. I don’t think he should be so mad, he shouldn’t leave her. They should do what it takes to banish the darkness from both of them.

Things I am grateful for:

6. a roof over my head
7. my feet
8. that I have enough $$$ to buy gifts for people
9. i’m not addicted to hard drugs
10. computers

Once Upon a Time Season 5×3 SPOILERS

If you haven’t seen the episode, get ready to cry Captain Swan fans. I called 5×3 the episode my heart died a little. It was weird, how she was trying to use Hook to get what she wanted and he was looking at her like she was the Dark One only. It seemed so uncharacteristic of his love for her. Hook would do anything for Emma, travel to the end of time for her, and I think their love should have been able to overcome the circumstances. As she pointed out, Belle loved Rumplestiltskin.

I think even if Hook wasn’t in love with Dark Emma, he wouldn’t be able to fight his feelings. I hate how he’s being stand offish, it kills my heart. How he said. “I loved you.” Past tense. Arrow to the heart. Ugh, lol.

I have speculations though. Where the fuck did August go? Does anyone know? There have been no mentions, and I am anxious to see him again! Maybe he could make a reappearance and romance the evil swan? I’m just grasping for straws here, who knows what could happen?

WARNING: Obsessive Fangirl Moment

THANK YOU NETFLIX, YOUTUBE & HULU! GOD BLESS YOU FOR GIVING ME SOMETHING TO MINDLESSLY DO FOR HOURS AND HOURS. I AM WAY TOO OBSESSED WITH THIS SHOW x_x

Finally watched the first episode of season 5!!! I’m so friggin excited. It’s torture having to wait for more. I absolutely loved Merida, and hope to see more of her. This website is really fun to peruse, the picture above came from it and there are many more gems.

I’ve been writing my own Once Upon a Time fanfic feverishly lately. I’ve lost a lot of sleep and been irresponsible, staying up so late I’ve even been late to work. I’ve literally been staying up all hours of the night working on writing again. The one sitting the other day, I pumped out nearly four whole chapters and they weren’t short neither. That hardly NEVER happens. I am elated to be doing something I enjoy. It’s fun having an obsession again.

Without further ado, the byproduct of my obsession:

Save the Savior by ladylace616
AU. Emma went with Lily at the bus stop and they’ve been together ever since. The Apprentice never showed himself to Lily and they grow up full of questions about their parents. One day, August the mysterious writer moves in next door & is determined to take them on a trip that will change their lives. The question is will it be for better or for worse? Chapter 10, Happy Halloween!

Sources of inspiration

Stories I am reading;

  1. The Dumbest Idea Ever by Rose unspindle [Read this if you’re feeling kinky. Polyam]
  2. Of Thieves, Smugglers and Reformed Hearts by lenfaz
    Modern Life AU – Granny has a special program where she gives reformed petty criminals room and boarding at Granny’s and help them get back on his feet. Killian and Will are part of the program. Killian’s path will lead him to the sheriff, Emma; while Will’s will take him to the arms of the recent divorced librarian, Belle.
  3. Of Madness and Love by KeyWillow8626
    Because Jefferson needs a love-interest and the madness will never end anyway.
  4. Salt Water Soothes the Soul by Ltb16
    CS AU. Her life hadn’t been easy but she always found some comfort when she was near the water. Now Emma Swan lives in a tiny resort town, enjoying small town life. Killian Jones recently lost his brother and wanted a new start. When he meets Emma in a random encounter, he finds himself wanting more. Will these two allow the salt water to sooth their souls? *Updated every Tuesday.
  5. Mind Games by CurvyPragmatist
    Major Emma Swan is signed off from active duty following an accident, refusing any and all help she eventually befriends a cat-loving Doctor with her own issues. SwanQueen AU.

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As I work on my creative efforts, I’ve been watching my Captain Swan Feels playlist. Please watch and adore the cuteness.