TWD: Season 7, ep 11 review

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Who could have guessed??? I was dumbstruck at the end of the latest episode when I realized I had just watched a whole hour of fucking Eugene and *gasp* ENJOYED it? WTF? lol Negan’s world is like paradise to him, it’s uncanny how well he adapts to the new world he’s been shown. Hubby & I were particularly thrilled when he reeled off that old dumb lie, because it’s certainly served him well~ being part of the HGP.

I was interested to see, wondering who he would prefer to belong to? The world is certainly better for him in Negan’s world, strange as that may be. I was thrilled for him when he stepped up and took things because he could. It was shocking to see him develop a spine suddenly, and more than that, thrive in his new world.

Happy Mother’s Day

depression

This is the most apt thing I’ve seen in a while.

How to Break a Broken Man by BattyNora
In Terminus, Gareth tells Rick that, as ringleader, he must pick one of the group in the train car to be sacrificed, but Rick refuses. Gareth attempts to convince Rick to choose by using Daryl, who has obviously already been beaten. To them it’s about enjoyment of causing people pain, both physical and mental, not about just getting food.

The Backcountry by silversundown
Survival horror, backwoods style: A weekend vacation to a tiny lakeside cabin turns out to be more than Carol bargained for. When Ed feels especially bad about a fight he takes her there to make up for it, but this time they aren’t the only ones roaming the woods. Faced with the real possibility of not surviving the trip Carol will have to make more than a few hard choices.


CAROL IS MY DARYL

In my perusal of the net lately, Carol has been getting a lot of shit!!! >o< WTF people? Bunch of haters. I absolutely love Carol and she is one of the shows most dynamic characters. She’s evolved into a stronger than steel woman from the poor battered wife she used to be.

When the group got to Alexandria and she posed as a timid woman to trick everyone about her cold and lethal viewpoint of the world, it was genius. She made it sound like she wasn’t brutal and ready to KILL. I thought some of her interactions with the annoying do-gooder Morgan were some excellent moments on TV. I was cheering on Carol as she tried to kill Morgan, because I believed more in what she believed- NO MERCY FOR YOUR ENEMIES. If they don’t kill them, they’ll come back to get them later. There will be no peace in letting your enemies live.

KEEP CALM AND
LOOK AT THE FLOWERS

I think it rattled Carol to step back into her timid self persona. She used this trick to pull the wool over the eyes of the Alexandria citizens and she and Maggie’s captors. She acted like she was a nervous nelly like she used to be, and maybe it did fuck her up, the poor thing. But she’s not a pussy now, guys!!! That’s what I keep seeing, people are disappointed/not understanding of her most recent actions in season six. She abandons the group, because she says she can’t kill for them anymore. Suddenly, she can’t bear to kill when she used to be the best at it, ruthless when she had to be.

Give Carol a friggin break, she held it together when she had to kill her adopted psycho daughter. I think she has been long due for a break down, so let her have it, people. She’ll wind back up with the others eventually. Carol always finds her way back.

So you need to come back from Kingdom.

Breaking Up in the ZA

I can’t help but feel like Rosita is getting the short end of the stick here. She seems to have come to rely on and expect Abraham to be around. They’re in a relationship, they lived and slept together. And he was needlessly cruel when he broke up with her, in what I deem to be his haste to get to Sasha.

I’m not hating on Sasha. Personally, I think she deserves a love interest after all this time and the shit she worked out (i.e. her suicidal feelings after her brother died) I didn’t think of Abraham as a likely candidate, but I do see their similarities.

Michael Cudlitz talked to Entertainment Weekly about the love triangle. He had this to say about Abraham in the situation-

It’s the zombie apocalypse. What, now there’s rules? No, look, he sees a lot of himself in Sasha, things that he has respected his whole life — the strength that she has on her own. I think in a lot of ways he feels like he’s protected Rosita, and he’s brought her to this point through training her, and here is someone that he’s looking at, and he’s seeing an equal who will call him on his bull. So he’s attracted to that. So, you know, we’ll see what that really evolves into.

“I think when characters have hope and they know that there’s a future, they reassess, and I think he’s going through a major reassessment right now knowing that. [Abraham] has sort of said, “Okay, this is where we are, and I’m not going to live any lies.” I’m going to move forward, and I’m going to do what I have to do.”

Be that as it may, from a woman’s perspective, Abraham was a real A-class asshole. Imagine the scenario- you’re about to storm a complex the next day and risk your life to rid yourself of a threat, and your lover walks out on you!!! Of course Rosita would want to be with him, she certainly had feelings for him. She made him that little red memento necklace, and Abraham carelessly left it behind. I felt sad watching it lay on the ground, unretrieved. I feel bad for Rosita, although she is getting the mayor’s son’s ass out of all this for her rebound so just how bad should we feel for her? (He’s an improvement, imo.)

Abe was just so damn mean. She stops him at the door before he can leave, and he grips her arms and says, “When I first met you, I thought you were the last woman on Earth, but you’re not.” >__< What an ass!! As if breaking up in itself isn’t horrible enough, knowing it’s for someone else makes it ten times worse.

Postsecret of the week:live

Contrary to this picture, I actually wish I could be going to therapy right now. The only problem with that is one) necessary funds and two) the willpower to make it to appointments. I have neither, but I aspire to someday.

I mentioned briefly to my fiance the possibility of attending Al Anon meetings again. I used to go for the problems I had with Joshua drinking, now I would like to return for my mother’s dependency on drugs. She makes me want to tear my hair out on a regular basis, just thinking of her, let alone actually seeing her.

I’ve been having to drive all over the state of Oklahoma in order to receive care for my many physical ailments. Most commonly, I am sent to the town of Clinton which is about 2 hours away from my home. I have to go all over the place for the free care of the Indian Clinics. They are extremely frustrating because when you’re sick, you’ll call for an appointment and they’re like, “Well we can see you 2-3 weeks from now.” *rolls eyes* Thanks for nothing!!

They have recently sent me to a specialist for one of my issues. I’m expecting to go to another in the near future, a urologist. On Monday, my fiance and I drove out to Lawton, Oklahoma and the whole trip was about a 6 hour process since we did not have a sturdy vehicle to make the trip, I had to borrow my Grandpa’s heavy duty F-350 to make the trip (which guzzles gas like no other.)

When we went to the clinic last week on Thursday, I had a hellacious day. My mother and I made the drive after I’d been awake all night for night audit and she blared the radio the whole way there, 1 1/2 hours. Then when we went to check in, the nurses had the gall to tell me that the doctor couldn’t see me due to an emergency surgery. I drove over an hour to be told the doctor couldn’t see me O_________________o I almost killed someone that day.

Anyway, finally got to see the doctor/OBGYN and I felt a lot better after speaking with him. My primary care doctor acts like my innards are a mystery and she has horrible bed side manner. This doctor seemed familiar with my problem and suggested birth control. He called it Mittelschmerz which is a fancy word for mid-cyclical pain. So next thing I know, I am being reclined on one of the seats in his office and they are numbing my arm up to shove a birth control device in my arm.

I’ve always been hesitant to be on birth control in the past. The only reason I agreed now is because this pain bites it hard. I never felt comfortable altering my hormones, and that is still the case. Let it be said that at the beginning of having this birth control inputted in my arm that I had recently lost 10 lbs and currently weigh 189 lbs. I worry about gaining weight and being an emotional mess- I mean, let’s face it, I don’t need any help in that department >_____>

What element is your love?

Your Love Element is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.

You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.

Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.

You connect best with: Earth

Avoid: Fire

You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

As for my TV shows, I’m catching up with both Once Upon a Time and The Walking Dead.

TWD: Season 6 spoilers!!!!

MY HEART!!!!!! T0T

My wonderful fiance purchased season 6 for me on Amazon prime. SQUEE!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED. I am even being nice and not jetting ahead of him in episodes. He actually knows more spoilers than I do at this point because he talks about it at work which I WISH I could. Anyway, we just finished watching episode 3 in which A TERRIBLE EVENT OCCURS!!! Look away if you haven’t watched it yet.

Glenn dies!! Because of that fucking pissant Nicholas. I could have told you last season that that asshole would be the death of Glenn. He made a grave mistake by choosing to let the little asshole live. He was trying to be a better person by helping out, which I am semi happy about, but STILL!!!!! My heart hurt so much with the death of Glenn. I immediately thought of Maggie, and she reacted pretty much like I thought she might. She was willing to go and look for him, to help him. I must say I was happily surprised that she is pregnant. At least that much of Glenn will live on *cries buckets*

Sex, Health, and Me

I’ve been having some health issues lately. As always, they are female issue related. I’ve been experiencing bloating, pain, and tenderness between my cycles. I suspected ovulation pain which I am familiar with, only recently I had a stretch of pain/general discomfort for about 3-4 days. It worried me, so I had that little break down I mentioned in my last post. I traveled to Ada, Oklahoma to visit the indian emergency room. Three hours later, they determined what it wasn’t and sent me off with pain meds and a referral to go to my normal doctor.

That was maybe a week and a half ago. Since then, Jake and I had a pleasurable trip out to Clinton so I could get an ultrasound done. When I finally got the test results back, the nurse told me that the results were “normal” even though I’m still experiencing pain and discomfort. She said just because they are normal doesn’t mean I’m not in pain, and then suggested that my problem could possibly be endometriosis and told me I had to follow up with my regular doctor, whom I hate.

After I found out about the news, I got a little upset. My boss recognized this and tried to talk to me about it, but I got emotional and had to leave the room. It’s hard for me to recognize when I need self-care, I tend to ignore what I really need and do what my id wants to do. I always feel the need to relax but never feel quite relaxed enough. I usually end up wasting a lot of my time smoking and indulging in false pleasures rather than focusing on what I really need to or should be doing to better myself. I should be indulging in more art and literature because expressing myself and immersing myself in words are both comforting acts to me.

Speaking of comfort, I started reading a pretty steamy story on fanfiction.net.

Thursday Night Safe Space by Magenta’s Nightmare
Andrea is a sex therapist who is married to Merle and best friends with Carol who is suffering the after effects of a troubled marriage. This is the story of what happens when Carol final lets her friend help her out. This is a Caryl story, don’t let the first chapter mislead you.

Rated: Fiction M – Daryl D., Andrea, Carol, Merle D. – Chapters: 9 – Words: 19,252 – Reviews: 65 – Favs: 10 – Follows: 26 – Updated: 21h ago – Published: Feb 15

It’s pretty hot, and I found it pretty stimulating for a couple of reasons. I used to consider being a therapist in the past. Not just any therapist, actually. A sex therapist. Among my friends, I have always been one of the more informed and I have a way of making them feel comfortable enough to share intimate details with me and open up.

The work that Andrea is doing in the story is very impacting. You can tell she is passionate about it because it matters. She brings intimacy into people’s relationships and makes them more sexually satisfied with each other. Being sexually informed and practiced is nothing to be ashamed of. It makes your partner feel better and more cared for when you know how to treat their body.

I have desired more intimacy in Jake and I’s relationship. In these sex work shops that Carol and Daryl are participating in, I’m a little familiar with the material. I’ve read plenty of sex stories and information on the importance of foreplay. I have even been to one of the sex shops before. I unwittingly went along with my artsy girlfriend who told me there would be free wine.

We showed up to a class in a small boutique shop in the plaza district. It was artistic and feminine with pastel corsets and bras on display in the shop. The class was described to me as an empowering experience for women so I didn’t complain as she brought me my free glass of wine. It was a class made up entirely of women ranging in ages and the instructor quickly introduced the thought of tantric sex. (Read more about tantric sex here.)

Before long, we were on our backs on the floor and the instructor was instructing us in raising our pelvis up off the floor and feeling your sexual energy. It was a pretty wicked experience, and I would have gone to more classes if me and that friend didn’t have a parting of ways.

You have to be in a comfortable space to achieve it. It’s hard to ask for what you want when you don’t think that your wish will be granted. Often times, I know I can’t ask Jake for extra foreplay because he gets impatient and then it’s just spoiled for both of us, which is infinitely worse than just spoiled for me.

If I’m being completely honest, I am more than a little bit interested in a more submissive type of sex style. I love to hear my partner make noises or talk dirty to me to show their appreciation, but Jake remains frustratingly silent. He is forever expecting me to read his mind when it comes to what he wants. He has trouble communicating, but he’s not the only one. He’d like me to do more anal experimentation, and I myself want to have more adventurous sex, as in outside-of-the-home sex ^_~

We’re making headway, believe it or not. The other day, Jake and I went out to a casino night date and went to Riverwind. On the way back after an enjoyable if not lucrative night out, we found ourselves groping in the car and things turned steamy quickly. I gave him road head on the way home despite how dangerous it is. I trust Jake implicitly, I knew he wouldn’t crash the car on us and he didn’t.

As for me trusting Jake, I am reminded of how much he really trusts me. The other night, we were 69ing, and his ass got ever closer to my face. I am almost positive he wanted me to perform anal oral sex on him, and I chickened out. If I am truly going to be confident in my skills, then I think I did the wrong thing shying away from the act. I’d like to work up the courage to try it, but don’t know how I feel about really performing the sexual act.

What are my reservations? I’m not afraid Jake would be unclean. I suppose it is the stigma attached to the act. I have always regarded it as something no man would ever want me to do, and felt grateful that no one had ever asked me to or been inclined for me to try it. But I know from experience that when Jake did it to me, it was an electrifying and forbidden feeling that was definitely pleasurable. I want him to feel the same, so we should shake it up somehow and I think that I should try it. I supposed I just don’t feel well educated enough about it to move forward with my desire, so I’ve been doing some research. . .

Speaking of weird sexual urges, I have an old friend in my orbit again. I got my old friend Sara a position up at my job. I don’t know if I regret it or not with her work output, but it sure is nice to hear all her gossip once more.

She likes regaling me with the sordid details of her new relationship. He is all about her and touching and pleasuring her, but she is being a cock tease and not reciprocating very much she says. She says he’s making it really difficult to deny her urges to have sex with him so soon. This will be her second relationship and she’s still pretty burned from the first dysfunctional one so she doesn’t want to move too fast.lol I told her girl you’re no virgin, you oughtta give it up haha

After my first boyfriend, I haven’t really made any boyfriend wait a long period of time before we got busy. I’m usually the one progressing things along pretty quickly. What can I say? I go after what I want lol

New addiction: Walking Dead

I know this show has been around for awhile now, but I just got into it and let me tell you I AM HOOKED. I am even being a good girlfriend and waiting for my boyfriend so we can watch them together, when normally I would blaze ahead of him. He gets discouraged when I watch things ahead of him, so I have been patient, very uncharacteristic of me when it comes to me and my shows lol =]

I’m on season 3 now and I’m basically like “don’t bother me, nothing productive is getting done so long as I have so many episodes left- must.watch.” I’ve been known to ignore what Jake is saying while the show is playing. I selected the above picture because I really liked that dynamic of the show. Shane was such a complex character, I both liked and detested him at times. I thought he might be a more aggressive kind of leader over Rick since sometimes Rick made stupid decisions, like staying so long in one area looking for a girl they all thought might be dead.

I was sorry to see him lose his shit. He was wily as a mother fucker, that Shane. I enjoyed the energy and tension he brought to the show. I was amazed by his swan song, how he betrayed Rick and got him alone in the forest. I realized it was a scene long coming, and I was surprised that Rick went all out like he did. I was shocked when he came back from the dead and Carl was the one to put him down.

Maggie and Glenn are one of my favorite couples. Glenn is one of my favorite characters over all. Maggie sees his true value right away when she meets him. Their first run into town together was very enlightening, and we saw Glenn come more into his own protecting her, the farmer’s daughter. I really enjoyed Herschel and his family being brought into the show. Glenn was a bad ass when he was getting tortured, refusing to give up camp like he did. He truly is a good strategist, and no time like when he was first introduced in Atlanta showed that.

I also really love Daryl! He is truly a valuable member of the team. He is very intuitive for his redneck roots. He’s certainly an asset, and I was upset when he abandoned the group to be with his brother. Who ever liked Merle?

Another character I also like is Michonne, despite how little I know about her. Anyway, I’m going to keep watching soon!!